You know like how you screwed something up and, no matter what you do it doesnt make any difference and you just keep replaying the scenes in your head, hoping you said this instead of that. Maybe the consequences were not that major last time, or maybe it matters a lot to me this time. I don't know because I just cant stop thinking about it I feel like im going crazy. I wished my boyfriend is here like right beside me right now so that I can be stablised but. No. I realise I dont mind being pillars for other people but I mind asking for support from others. Its like too huge a favour? I dont know I really dont know. Thats why I blog I guess.