"Of course its happening in your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"
This dream is so complicated and so many people are involved, that I guess I'll have to analyse it part by part.
Note: The following post is rather personal and some of the things would most probably be difficult to relate to. HAHAS. But well you night get some ideas on how to decipher your dreams, and figure out how to understand yourself better through understanding your dreams. Its a long post. dont say I didnt warn ya.
PART 1.
I was with my friends at some kind of school trial, where a huge bunch of us are walking around exploring. Then we met Jane, (she was the crush of my boyfriend for a pretty long time, and I don't know what exactly happened between them. I told myself that he will tell me if he wants to but, I never actually made it a point to say that I wanna know, so I guess he thinks that there is no need to mention that, at all. Jane was alone, I knew her friends since they are all fun people and I know her personally, before I got together with my boyfriend. Even though I never admitted that I hated her, and I don't know how to really sincerely like her without having bad feelings. In school of course we act normal, but privately I always make her small actions seem to be against me, like as though she hated me and stuff, to a close friend of mine who didn't appear in this dream. haha. Anyways back to the dream) before that I just said hi to her circle of friends(which included my good friends), then we turned a corner and saw her, alone with her dslr, awed by her surroundings. Since I don't want to get close to her at all deep down, Queenie (a fun and popular girl, who is also friends with Jane. She was in Jane's secondary school clique.) and I just continued to walk hand in hand, chatting like we never saw her, though she kept nearby.Well I guess this part of the dream is pretty obvious, I always thought that Jane stole me of my friends, my guy from me. So I dreamt that Queenie was on my side, what a strong reference, sorry for dragging you in hahaha. Though she was friendly and all with me, how can I bring myself to like someone like her? I mean she actually didn't do anything wrong, we just crossed paths at too many unhappy points. I feel sorry for hating her so much but I cant do anything, any fucking thing about it. She took my friends, my boyfriend and -
1. She didn't take your boyfriend. technically, you took him from her. He liked her first and you were the one that made him feel otherwise.
2. She didn't take your friends either. Those friends are friends you probably wouldn't lose this whole life cos its just so much crazy ass fun together.
3. There isn't a point hating her, cos it was never her fault to begin with. Who would consider your feelings while making friends? the guy thing is really not her fault at all.
PART 2.
When Jane ran to take the lead, I ran, faster and better. Such that I leave a huge gap between me and the whole group of people behind.That, is my inferiority complex coming out to play. Being competitive is in my nature, especially in the sports area, studies, not so.
BUT. Stop feeling inferior compared to her. You really are not. She might be taller, prettier, but you are better than her in some other areas too, like being cute. You may be inferior in some areas but not others, my dear. You don't have to win in everything.
PART 3.
I was at the field, without my shoes, then when I wanted to get out of the field, after a friend's hint about the slippers. I realised Mel was wearing my slippers, then I was like, shouting, like my usual, walao why you wear my slippers. Then she just walked over and left my slippers there, and walked away quietly. Then, we headed to the canteen to eat, but Mel and her close friend went up the stairs, saying they rather have the Hershey drops they bought.Uhm, I don't really have an idea what this means. Let's see..
That these playmates aren't really my friends?
Nope.
That I am annoying sometimes?
Maybe.
That I may not be as well liked as I think?
Yeah I think so.
Well I guess i'll have to do something about my friends, I haven't been sincere and all these days. Even though I tell myself I wouldn't become those girls who would treat her friends differently after getting a guy. But what can I do? Let's be honest and be more loving alright, they really care about you my love.
PART 4
I was going home with a try too hard to be pretty and popz friend, Rose, a doesn't seem to try to be pretty but she does. hence she is dead gorgeous, Sarah, my boyfriend, Tim, and this close friend of my boyfriend whom I know too, Jim. So we took the train and Rose was sitting at the end, beside her is Sarah, then me, then Tim, then Jim. I remember Tim leaving a gap between us as we sat, well I didn't think much about it since like, we are so low profile. But we all fell asleep and we somehow snuggled up. And he was like, your nose is so ugly. something he always say. Then he just stood up and stand near but not too near to Sarah, but towards her y'know, you get my point. Then I fell asleep again and when I woke up, Jim was saying they (Sarah and Tim) left, and Rose was giving that disgusted face, said with that guy, referring to Tim I suppose. And she looked disgusted. Although Sarah and Rose were great friends, they had a weird history with regards to boyfriends, and Sarah obviously is more well liked by guys. I guess Rose hates that, since she wants to be the popular one. This may not be the case but since its my subconscious, I have to be honest with what I really feel. Oh, recently I also watched this variety from Taiwan, 女人我最大 and there was this episode on guys cheating. And yeah I guess that kinda triggered all these. I remember the statistics. 1 in a 100 would not cheat. just one. it was kinda scary manz. He occasionally would bring up some girls he think is pretty. :/I think this one also my inferiority complex. Since I always have skin issues, and I ain't the prettiest chick around.
I guess the only way to deal with this is to become prettier. I mean, pretty people always gets it, don't you realise? Because they are pleasant looking, they win it. I mean, I may have the skills, but isn't it even better if you have both the looks and the skills? Sorry for being shallow here but I do want to be pretty.
PART 5
There are other parts to the dream but, just too lazy and tired to bother. Those parts make even less sense sighs. Like my old friends in futuristic sense. Its so scary.
So yeah I shall end this post here HAHAS. Sorry for the long winded self debates. But yeah this dream affected me quite a bit so. I needed to let it out somehow, and i chose this platform to. Hope those who read till the end have an idea as to how I try and resolve the knots in my heart. It may be a way to come to conclusions, to face things that you have always tried to escape using your busy everyday life as an excuse.
I ain't a professional in this field so, all of the above are just what I deem as right, what I feel could just be right.
Sweet dreams guys.
