'Addicts are never really cured'
I have an addict, to squeezing blackheads. I am tyrophobic, but I absolutely LOVE squeezing blackheads. It gives me such a major satisfaction, especially when I am stressed. So my nose and inner cheeks suffered for about the whole of 1.5 years, which I poked and squeezed, deployed needles and tweezers to get the gunk out. I don't know if it sounds weird or what but, it just gives me a major, major satisfaction. I help my granny squeeze blackheads on her back when she asks for help with her bra cos she cant reach to the back. But I have been off my face for at least a good 1/2 year. Yeah occasional pokes here and there. Maybe because I was stress-free these, then all of a sudden many things came at one go it was too overwhelming. But yeah. I read it somewhere that addicts are never really cured, as it takes only one thought, and less than one second before the body takes over the mind, before you can change your kind after commiting your crime. It was true. All I did this morning was wake up, and O stared at the mirror for a while, tiptoed over the sink so I can have a better look. spotted 3 very black blackheads in the right nose valley and up comes my hands, down comes my sin. It felt good, cos unexpectedly the gunk from the left side of the valley, that is my right side of my nose, came put. Though the blackheads were invisible, they were there. Evidently. But the stubborn ones in the valley weren't coming out. Am I being too descriptive here?
I have an addict, to squeezing blackheads. I am tyrophobic, but I absolutely LOVE squeezing blackheads. It gives me such a major satisfaction, especially when I am stressed. So my nose and inner cheeks suffered for about the whole of 1.5 years, which I poked and squeezed, deployed needles and tweezers to get the gunk out. I don't know if it sounds weird or what but, it just gives me a major, major satisfaction. I help my granny squeeze blackheads on her back when she asks for help with her bra cos she cant reach to the back. But I have been off my face for at least a good 1/2 year. Yeah occasional pokes here and there. Maybe because I was stress-free these, then all of a sudden many things came at one go it was too overwhelming. But yeah. I read it somewhere that addicts are never really cured, as it takes only one thought, and less than one second before the body takes over the mind, before you can change your kind after commiting your crime. It was true. All I did this morning was wake up, and O stared at the mirror for a while, tiptoed over the sink so I can have a better look. spotted 3 very black blackheads in the right nose valley and up comes my hands, down comes my sin. It felt good, cos unexpectedly the gunk from the left side of the valley, that is my right side of my nose, came put. Though the blackheads were invisible, they were there. Evidently. But the stubborn ones in the valley weren't coming out. Am I being too descriptive here?
This is an addiction of perfectionists, who can't stand even the smallest flaws, who basically are stressed. We are people who strive to do well. Y'know back in the days when I was trying to kick this habit, I dont know to feel good or bad about this successful people thing. HAHAHA.
But yeah my point was, I made a mistake, I reverted to my old ways, but its just occasionally so I cut myself some slack. Don't have to beat yourself up for just this once right? Just make sure its occasionally.
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